Over You

Although I can't relate to this song, I can't stop watching this video. 

Such a simple and honest performance by Cassadee Pope on The Voice :)

Over You

Weather man said it's gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn't be so scary
It was only December I still remember
The presents, the tree, you and me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you

Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I'm not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along with every song
I know you didn't mean to give them to me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you

Cause you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you
Ever get over you.

Originally sung by Miranda Lambert

My Greatest Fear

The weather was so hot today and the traffic was just overwhelming but I had so much fun today taking the Koreans around the historical sites in town and later on to CCC for the children's party with the Orang Asli kids :) The Koreans are from a church in Singapore and they made a day trip here just for this. They were really enthusiastic and capable in dealing with the children today. Really enjoyed the time spent with them :)

I had the opportunity to handle the media projection today for the first time in CCC. No one was assigned and somehow I took up the role without realizing it as the person-in-charged gave me the flashdrive containing the slides. I thank God for wisdom to be of service in this area and managed to handle things smoothly with some help. In fact I had a lot of fun singing along while managing the slides.

After everything was over, on my way home, I felt a sense of satisfaction while I thought about what I was able to do today. Initially, when asked by Pastor to help out, I was rather reluctant. I was thinking to myself that my Korean was not good enough to be able communicate with any Korean and it would be a communication struggle. So, I was just not hyped up for it at all. But last night, Elvi told me that she will be picking me up around noon and I just took it in. So as arranged, we headed to meet the Koreans and the rest is history. Turns out that language was not a problem at all as they were all able to speak English since they live in Singapore.

My mind has been unnecessarily occupied recently with certain things and for the first time after a long time, it was focused on what was going on today instead. Throughout the day, I felt relaxed and happy to be doing what I did without thinking of anything else. I appreciate the joy of serving God even just by clicking on the computer today and singing songs of praise and worship. I realized that life should be lived like this every single day yet it has not been this way. Work and leisure time have become so mundane where most of the time my mind is not fully present. My daily routine has been switched to auto-pilot mode and my mind has been free to wander to places that I burden myself with. Honestly, I am so tired.

That few hours today felt like me taking a breather above the water after being underwater for some time now. Today, I saw how serving God with all my heart can do. It totally put my mind and heart at ease even though there are many things going on with life. Once again, I was just enjoying the fact that I am living that moment just for Him and doing my best with the given task. Nothing else mattered.

So, my greatest fear? That is to never be able to do anything for Him or feel that way ever again. Be it playing music or just being there to help anyone out, I just want nothing else to matter except to bring glory to Him because He deserved every bit of my life.

For this cause.

Roller Coaster

Life is pretty much like this now. Certainly do not know if it is a good thing or not. Probably a balance, I hope? A lot is going on right now and I find myself being emotional challenged most of the time. There are days where I just yearn to be silent and days where I tend to be loud and hyped-up for just about anything. These coming months will be eventful. But I am really excited for friends' weddings and long-awaited trips too :)

Take control, Lord.

I'll Sing Your Praises Forever

It was pretty late already but I remembered that I needed to get something from the supermarket. After a bath, I was still contemplating if I should head out. Somehow I decided not to and found myself sitting in front of the computer wanting to go through the songs for this week's Sunday service. I found myself drifting into the presence of God as I listened to the first song. Then my heart was stirred to listen to one of my favourite worship songs. As I clicked play, I began to close my eyes. I knew the song by heart and began to sing. It was not even the end of the first verse when I felt tears running down my cheeks. I kept singing but found myself crying more than I could sing. So I just kept crying. In that moment I felt how real God was and His presence just filled me and all I could do was soak in it.Words cannot do justice to what I experienced in that length of the song as I sat weeping and worshiping Him. More than ever, I believe that God is real and He knows my heart. I truly marvel at how close He is to me and knowing me inside out. As much as I have been occupied with work and taking every opportunity to let my hair down when I have the time, not making as much time as I should for Him, He gave me that precious moment tonight when He drew me back to His awesome presence. I realized how much I have taken Him for granted by not keeping Him close but just merely a God who hears and watches over me from 'afar'. Tonight, when He touched me, it was like Him wanting to tell me that He is not far away at all and that He is just as close as a father or a friend.

Here in Your courts where I'm close to Your throne,

I find where I belong.

Proverbs

Sleep

⁶ Go to the ant, you sluggard;
    consider its ways and be wise!
⁷ It has no commander,
    no overseer or ruler,
⁸ yet it stores its provisions in summer
    and gathers its food at harvest.

⁹ How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
    When will you get up from your sleep?
¹⁰ A little sleep, a little slumber,
    a little folding of the hands to rest —
¹¹ and poverty will come on you like a thief
    and scarcity like an armed man.

Learning

⁷ The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge,
    but fools^[a] despise wisdom and instruction.

Counsel

¹⁵ The way of fools seems right to them,
    but the wise listen to advice.

Discernment

¹⁵ The simple believe anything,
    but the prudent give thought to their steps.

Friends

²⁰ Walk with the wise and become wise,
    for a companion of fools suffers harm.

Rebuke

⁸ Do not rebuke mockers or they will hate you;
    rebuke the wise and they will love you.

Caution

¹⁶ The wise fear the Lord and shun evil,
    but a fool is hotheaded and yet feels secure.

Humility

² When pride comes, then comes disgrace,
    but with humility comes wisdom.

Change

³ The prudent see danger and take refuge,
    but the simple keep going and pay the penalty.

Planning

⁵ The wise prevail through great power,
    and those who have knowledge muster their strength.
⁶ Surely you need guidance to wage war,
    and victory is won through many advisers.

Self Control

¹¹ Fools give full vent to their rage,
    but the wise bring calm in the end.

Heart

²³ Above all else, guard your heart,
    for everything you do flows from it.

Never enough wisdom.