It was pretty late already but I remembered that I needed to get something from the supermarket. After a bath, I was still contemplating if I should head out. Somehow I decided not to and found myself sitting in front of the computer wanting to go through the songs for this week's Sunday service. I found myself drifting into the presence of God as I listened to the first song. Then my heart was stirred to listen to one of my favourite worship songs. As I clicked play, I began to close my eyes. I knew the song by heart and began to sing. It was not even the end of the first verse when I felt tears running down my cheeks. I kept singing but found myself crying more than I could sing. So I just kept crying. In that moment I felt how real God was and His presence just filled me and all I could do was soak in it.Words cannot do justice to what I experienced in that length of the song as I sat weeping and worshiping Him. More than ever, I believe that God is real and He knows my heart. I truly marvel at how close He is to me and knowing me inside out. As much as I have been occupied with work and taking every opportunity to let my hair down when I have the time, not making as much time as I should for Him, He gave me that precious moment tonight when He drew me back to His awesome presence. I realized how much I have taken Him for granted by not keeping Him close but just merely a God who hears and watches over me from 'afar'. Tonight, when He touched me, it was like Him wanting to tell me that He is not far away at all and that He is just as close as a father or a friend.
Here in Your courts where I'm close to Your throne,
I find where I belong.
