Monday, August 27, 2012

Roller Coaster

Life is pretty much like this now. Certainly do not know if it is a good thing or not. Probably a balance, I hope? A lot is going on right now and I find myself being emotional challenged most of the time. There are days where I just yearn to be silent and days where I tend to be loud and hyped-up for just about anything. These coming months will be eventful. But I am really excited for friends' weddings and long-awaited trips too :)


Take control, Lord.



Thursday, August 09, 2012

I'll Sing Your Praises Forever

It was pretty late already but I remembered that I needed to get something from the supermarket. After a bath, I was still contemplating if I should head out. Somehow I decided not to and found myself sitting in front of the computer wanting to go through the songs for this week's Sunday service. I found myself drifting into the presence of God as I listened to the first song. Then my heart was stirred to listen to one of my favourite worship songs. As I clicked play, I began to close my eyes. I knew the song by heart and began to sing. It was not even the end of the first verse when I felt tears running down my cheeks. I kept singing but found myself crying more than I could sing. So I just kept crying. In that moment I felt how real God was and His presence just filled me and all I could do was soak in it.Words cannot do justice to what I experienced in that length of the song as I sat weeping and worshiping Him. More than ever, I believe that God is real and He knows my heart. I truly marvel at how close He is to me and knowing me inside out. As much as I have been occupied with work and taking every opportunity to let my hair down when I have the time, not making as much time as I should for Him, He gave me that precious moment tonight when He drew me back to His awesome presence. I realized how much I have taken Him for granted by not keeping Him close but just merely a God who hears and watches over me from 'afar'. Tonight, when He touched me, it was like Him wanting to tell me that He is not far away at all and that He is just as close as a father or a friend.


Here in Your courts where I'm close to Your throne,
I find where I belong.


Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Proverbs


Sleep
Go to the ant, you sluggard;
    consider its ways and be wise!
It has no commander,

    no overseer or ruler,
yet it stores its provisions in summer
    and gathers its food at harvest.
How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
    When will you get up from your sleep?
10 A little sleep, a little slumber,
    a little folding of the hands to rest —
11 and poverty will come on you like a thief
    and scarcity like an armed man.

Learning
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge,
    but fools[a] despise wisdom and instruction.

Counsel
15 The way of fools seems right to them,
    but the wise listen to advice.

Discernment
15 The simple believe anything,
    but the prudent give thought to their steps.

Friends
20 Walk with the wise and become wise,
    for a companion of fools suffers harm.

Rebuke
Do not rebuke mockers or they will hate you;
    rebuke the wise and they will love you.

Caution
16 The wise fear the Lord and shun evil,
    but a fool is hotheaded and yet feels secure.

Humility
When pride comes, then comes disgrace,
    but with humility comes wisdom.

Change
The prudent see danger and take refuge,
    but the simple keep going and pay the penalty.

Planning
The wise prevail through great power,
    and those who have knowledge muster their strength.
Surely you need guidance to wage war,

    and victory is won through many advisers.

Self Control
11 Fools give full vent to their rage,
    but the wise bring calm in the end.

Heart
23 Above all else, guard your heart,
    for everything you do flows from it.


Never enough wisdom.