His grace is sufficient for me...

As I sat in the office today, busy as usual, I suddenly began to ponder on how God has brought me through these 26 weeks of my internship. I remember during the first few weeks I really enjoyed the idea of working...I totally look forward to go to work everyday..which some of u thought was truly weird of me..haha.. but from the 3rd month onwards, when I was assigned more tasks, I started feeling the pressure...each assignment that I was given got tougher and tougher and I found myself praying that God will grant me more wisdom every day, and that I'll be able to manage any given task without making any mistake. Without fail, I was able to complete a given task on time, I mean there isn't any deadline for me but I'm very grateful that I never once slowed the team down...just so u know, we're normally given 1 week at a client's place to audit their accounts, so we must finish everything within that week..that's why we need to work fast..I was always paranoid about that. I constantly told myself never to be slow..for fear of slowing the rest down..I wonder what do you call that kind of fear..LOL. I guess I gave myself a lot of pressure too...my colleagues are all very kind, they never once rushed me or scolded me, but always guiding me patiently and generously taking time to explain things in detail even though we're short of time. Since the first week, I've always been touched by their kindness - that was a big eye-opener for me, I dunno why I felt that humans were not capable of being that kind usually..LOL. Even though I had quite a bad experience a while back, which some of u may know, it's kinda like no biggie now that i think back...I guess it's just something for me to go through and remember...and...and...just live with it lah..haha.
so, as I was flipping through audit reports and pressing my calculator frantically (I was doing that the whole day today), my heart suddenly felt heavy. I realized I can't bear to leave this company in a few weeks' time. I looked around and I realized I've grown attached to the office, the people. Deep down I knew the very reason why I felt that way - sense of belonging.
I wish I love auditing, then I won't hesitate to return to the company and work after I graduate, that's if they want me lah..haha..but sadly, auditing doesn't interest me at all...and also workload of an intern cannot be compared with that of an auditor..haha. Anyway, it's been a great experience for me so far...I got to work in many different types of environment and enjoyed myself in many different ways....haha....for that, I'm thankful. I pray that I'll continue to add value to my final 3 audit assignment teams before my time is up! :) :)

so emo, I know....